Keeping the End Result in Mind

As we left the building that day we were both very quiet. There were so many things we had heard and so many things we had to digest. When we got in the car, before we could get our seat belts on, we were both asking each other the same question....do you still think we can do this? We both were on the same page. We didn't know if we were strong enough to go thru what that couple had gone thru and it didn't matter how much we wanted a child. We went round and round about what we should do and talked all the way home. We talked about it over dinner and we continued to weigh our options through out the night...still coming up with no solid answers. Finally we just stopped trying to figure it out and prayed. We held hands in the kitchen and we prayed for guidance. We needed to know God had our backs on this one and so we prayed.

It was a couple days after that the Leyla called me. She had heard we were at the last class and she wanted to see where we were at after all we had heard. I explained to her how we weren't sure we could handle a situation like that. She then went on to tell us that they use the worst case scenarios in the "training" classes so people know what they could be up against. She explained that the more we knew about different cases the easier it would be to decide what we could deal with and what we couldn't. And then she asked us not to give up yet. I didn't know what to tell her so I just told her we would think about it and keep her posted on if we were going to move forward in this process.

When I got off the phone my husband and I talked about it again. We then analyzed every word I could remember that Leyla said. And still no epiphany about which direction God wanted us to go. That Sunday we talked to our pastors wife again we told her the story about our training. We even told her we weren't sure we could do this and she told us the same thing Leyla had....she said, you hear the horror stories and they will scare you...they should scare you they are horror stories....just keep the end result in mind and keep taking the next step.

And with her and Leyla in our corner we decided to take the next step....I called up Leyla and we were signed up for our next class. This one would be on diversity....