Meet Tina

After the interview I had to head back to work. My mind was racing and going back to work was one of the last things I really wanted to do. On my way back into the office I had talked to my husband on the phone and told him everything. I gave him play by play on what had happened in my meeting with Violet...I am sure I gave him so much information his head was going to explode and of coarse I waited until the last second to say....my past is not going to effect our future! After he listened to me and heard the outcome of the interview he to was relieved to hear that my childhood wasn't going to be a problem for us. It had be weighing heavily on his mind too.

Back at the office I was greeted at the door by one of my dearest friends Tina. She worked in the same department I did. Our cubicles were side by side so even if we didn't want to know what was going on with one another we did know because we sat so close. It didn't take us long to figure out how much we were alike. There were many things that brought us together but one of the biggest is we are both very vocal and we tell you exactly what we were thinking even if you didn't want to hear it. Also, at that time each of us found ourselves crunching numbers but neither of us liked doing it...it was just something we learned to do and we were good at it so we paid the bills with that knowledge...but we both dreamed of something different for our lives!

I do think that even tho we had so much in common my favorite thing about Tina was she believed in what ever it was I wanted to do. She never gave me a Pro's vs. Con's list in anything I said I wanted to do in my life. She only gave me the positives and then would brainstorm with me on how to accomplish my goal. When I wanted to give up on my dream of being a parent because I didn't want to go to another class or I was afraid I couldn't handle a child that had been abused or neglected....she would tell me how great I was going to be and she would keep moving forward. Tina and I were meant to be friends.

So when I saw her as I walked thru the door she smiled and said...well your not crying so it must have went well! It was those kind of comments that made me laugh the hardest...the true ones! I started to laugh and I said....yeah it went a lot better than I expected. As we walked to the elevators I was giving her the play by play I had already given my husband. She listened to me all the way back to our little cubicles and even then I kept talking. Before I knew it Rebecca had also joined the conversation...the three of us were like the three musketeers....we lived life together and we dreamed together! That day I think the three of us spent an hour going back and fourth on what I said vs. what Violet said in the interview. You could feel the excitement in our conversation...we all knew that I was on step closer to being a mother...and all of us couldn't wait to see what the future held for my husband and I!

I am not sure any of us got any work done that day but I do know that I fell in love with those friendships even more that day and it was all because we dreamed about me being a mother together....and the best part was they were glowing at the idea as much as I was!