Ashley says Lets Talk

We got home and we were both getting ready for bed and I decided I would check emails before I turned in. I don't really know what prompted me to do this because it was late and I knew Julian would have me up at 5am ready to eat. I was even beginning to talk myself out of it as I sat behind the computer but then I saw an email from Ashley. My heart stopped and I knew immediately who she was.


I was shaking as I dragged the mouse to open the email and my mind raced remembering back to the young girl I use to baby sit so long ago. I remembered how she had told me her friend Ashley may contact me because she was pregnant and wanting to give the baby up for adoption. I couldn't believe her name was actually in mail box waiting for a response from me. The title of the email was: Lets Talk.


After the night I had with the support group, reading this email just caused more questions. I clicked open the email and my heart raced in excitement. She began the email by telling me about who she was and explaining that she was pregnant and was looking for the right family for her baby. She seemed so grown up in her words and very decisive in her decision to give her unborn child to a home that could provide a life to the baby that she couldn't at her young age. Her courage was one of the first things that struck me in her email. So much so that I sat and read her email wishing I had her strength. I heard her heart in her words and with each word I read I knew I needed to meet her.


I wasn't sure where Julian's case was going and if we needed other options for adoption. His case was still in the beginning stages according to all the social workers in our life. But I had just sat through a class that told me early stages in a case don't matter. There were still so many unanswered questions and so many people still not looking for the answers to help Julian. To help any of us. But more than just wanting to talk to her about us taking her baby, I just wanted to meet her because of her strength. We were both in a place in our lives where we needed someone to hear our hearts and understand the journeys we were on. Even though each of journeys were different, some how they seemed the same.

She ended her email by asking me to go to lunch. She wasn't ready to meet both my husband and I but she did want to meet me first. I was completely open to it and I couldn't wait to meet her.