My First Letter to Julian

July 22, 2007

My Dearest Julian,

Today is the first day I am writing to you. You have changed so much in the last three months that you have been with us and I want you to someday look back at this letter and know what you were doing and how I was feeling.

Yesterday was the first day we let anyone else hold you besides us. When you came to us so many strangers had been in your life so we didn't want to add to your confusion by letting just anyone hold you. We have taken our time and the time you needed for bonding. But yesterday we went to a barbecue and everyone was in awe of you. You were full of smiles and giggles. It was my good friend Sara that was the first one to hold you. You watched me the whole time to make sure I was close. You also lost the giggles and smiles if I wasn't holding you but it warmed my heart to know you looked for me. It meant in your eyes I was finally mommy and I was so honored to be with you. You did great and everyone fell in love with you, just as I knew they would. Your so easy to love.

Your second little tooth is coming in. To be honest teething is not our thing. Neither you or I enjoy any part of this. We both cry a lot and some days you cry so much you start to lose your voice. All I can do is hold you and cry with you. We also spend a lot of time praying for it to be quick every time we see a new tooth on the way.

My favorite thing you do right now is laugh so hard you snort. It makes me laugh every time. I lay you on my tummy and hold you like I am hugging you then I start to tickle your sides and you bury your face in my chest and laugh until you snort. Today you had me laughing so hard I got tears in my eyes. I love our time together little one. It feels so precious.

When you first came home everyone bought you clothes. Your already growing out of them. Some of them you haven't even worn. You don't like to wear much so you spend most days in a onsie because you get so hot so easily. If you had your way it would be naked baby all the time.

Your favorite food is squash and sweet potatoes. Your eyes light up and you begin to kick in your high chair every time you smell one of them cooking. And when I start to head your way with them you squeal with delight. I make them for you a lot just to hear the squeal. When you eat, you need your own spoon to hold. You like to bang it on the highchair or to chew on it if I am not feeding you fast enough. We can't ever get started with meals if you don't have your own spoon. Baby food is all you will eat right now, you don't like anything solid in your mouth. I have tried many new foods but each time you begin to make this funny sound similar to a cat with a hair ball. I have tried to show you several ways to swallow solid food but you are still trying to figure it all out. I know we will get there.

More than anything I want you to know how blessed your daddy and I are to have you. I look forward to watching you grow into the amazing person I know you will be. I can't wait until you have our last name. Your a blessing baby boy!

I love you,
Mommy